hi, im thea. im a filipina, a minor, and a major dyke.

this site was made by a socially awkward teenage girl who is a complete loser. i have like..3 friends (SEVERE OVERSTATEMENT!!) so i spend most of my days just bedrotting and gooning to ellie.

i dont even know how to describe myself because everyone ive ever met has given me such different descriptions of what they percieve me to be. ive been called articulate, irresponsible, quiet, loud, smart, stupid, mean, kind, you get the gist. so i will try to find the most accurate description which is a mix of how i see myself, and how other people do. im a bit (very) awkward, obsessive, lowk a self sabotager, and i think too much. i dont like being vunerable around others. so people just assume that i dont care. but i do care, more than id want to, actually. i'd say that im more logical, meaning that i make decisions based on my brain and not my heart. this makes things turn out 'better' for me in the end, but im never truly satisfied. ive been trying to stop thinking like this, though. im contradictive, which isnt really a good thing because i cant form a solid opinion on stuff. i need to see things from all angles and perspectives before forming an opinion, which i think makes me an empathetic person. the way i see other people and the way i see myself is very, very different. id say that i have this never-ending self-hatred that grows everyday. sometimes, i have to just step back and remember that im still in highschool. im young, and its okay to not have everything figured out yet. the past academic achiever in me who cried over the smallest mistakes is giving me a hard time to adopt this mindset, but whats life without problems? im melancholic. i think everyone is, actually. its just this thing about being human, knowing that youre gonna leave one day so youre just kinda sad all the time. nostalgia consumes me. time consumes me. no matter how ready you think you are to leave, you never are. id like to stay in some moments forever, but then it wouldnt be a moment (lis ref??). even though im sad all the time, i still think life is beautiful. the reason life has so much meaning, is because it doesnt last forever. you get one life, and thats it. no redos, no more chances. thats why i try to make the most out of it, while still thinking of my future, of course. kinda went off topic but whatever.

thank you for listening to my very long yap session, i admit that i can be a bit of a chatterbox at times:(( every view/interaction on this site means a lot to me, so dont be afraid to say something! this marks the end of my 'about me' page. make sure to check out my other pages as well, happy exploring!

i love...tlou (and ellie:3). twd. arcane. yellowjackets (and lottie). ts4. blue eye samurai. gossip girl. thg. companion. sophie thatcher. mistynat. manifest. asoue. aib. death note. fnaf. tshoeh. ldr. tumblr. pinterest.

i dont love...mondays. hot weather. sour candy. over-negative people. school. extreme haters. anxiety:((

i like to do... baking. coding. photography. DIY. track (sometimes). journaling. reading.